God Bless Everyone This Easter Season

It was such a beautiful morning out here I decided to make a photo shoot out of my little stroll on the grounds.

Daily Prompt: Shine

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Still shining!

Weekly Photo Challenge: I am Nothing, if Not Resilient

In fact as many times as I have been down in life with financial problems,

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physical ailments,

depression,

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the sin of growing old in a vain culture

and various dealings with the fickle finger of fate.

There is a core of strength and protection all around me.  It is called faith.  Faith from the living Word that never fails.

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Narrow

Matthew 7:13    Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:

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Matthew 7:14     Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

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Daily Prompt: Sink or Swim?

So is a little thing like your life considered an overwhelming situation?

Funny that I have felt for so long like I have been dog paddling trying to survive in my life.  I never seem to get anywhere so it’s not like I am actually swimming.  With God’s help I have not sunk yet, but the older I get the more tired I become.

Most people have some kind of family support in their lives, but this has never been my case and I don’t say this to feel sorry for myself.  I come from a severely dysfunctional family of many secrets, but it helped me to become the strong woman I am.  It is very had being related to a family of mentally ill substance abusers because you never hear from anyone unless they need something.  None were ever in a position to help me and I dealt with that by shutting down emotionally and just kept swimming pretending that I was not dying inside.  I lied, because I died.

Now at least I can forgive myself for not making it to my imagined finish line that I drew for myself in my life because of the lovely surprise of our mortgage meltdown just a few years after finally purchasing my own home.  I think that was one of the finish anchors that finally told me to give up, I can’t win for losing.

Po Girl has to shine because she has no choice.  Jesus said he would never leave or forsake those that follow Him and I believe Him.  Good folk don’t usually cotton to those from the wrong side of the track as well as having to live in an all white neighborhood and our family is racially mixed though most of us look pretty white as far as that goes.  I was not allowed to play with a lot of the little white kids, I would get chased home even though I played very nicely with the other children.  It wasn’t until things were even pointed out to me about racial differences or skin colors that I even noticed I was a little darker than the other kids, especially in the summer when I was very dark, but that’s another blog post.

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My outcome is that I will never give up because I don’t know how, thanks to God, and I still believe in miracles and following the Golden Rule.

 

 

Daily Prompt: Forever Faithful and Grateful

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You can’t be faithful to God and have an ungrateful heart.  Most that don’t believe in God or do believe but choose to hate Him and try to defile Him in all that they do seem to have a childish mindset that God is like a genie that grants wishes.  They don’t get what they want out of their life so blame God or think because they make bad choices and have poor impulse control that God does not exist.

The only people who can think this way are those that were not taught spiritual truth.  The term is “walking in the dark.”  They say ignorance is bliss but in the long run it really is death.  Man will be held accountable for deliberate ignorance.  God knows if you know something is wrong but choose to do it anyway or when you find something out that you know is true but try to pretend that it’s not and try to blame it on our current liberal propaganda that is obviously destroying His world.  I think we were all born with certain inner knowledge, as most creatures, of what to do and what not to do.  It is called instinct.  Since man is very selfish by nature because of that survival instinct, it is important to temper this selfishness with civility or spiritual training or any kind of civilization would be quite impossible.  Sometimes it truly looks like many are completely brainwashed by the low-grade movies churned out by the greedy and depraved.  Just cause you watch it on a screen, does not make it real life or anything worth imitating.  Man is very easily influenced by others, that’s how we learn.  It’s shameful that most of any entertainment that exists in America has so much gratuitous sex and violence instead of instilling values and reinforcing the positive qualities of mankind.

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People seem to forget, that much like our earth is being mindlessly trashed, if we are not mindful of how we are raising human beings and treating one another, there could come a point of no return for everything.  We are not guaranteed tomorrow, we are not guaranteed the use of this earth, especially if we don’t take care of it.  The same goes for others in our lives that are not treated with the love and kindness that Jesus spoke of.  This is exactly why He is the truth, the life and the only way.

So yes, I consider myself faithful.  How could I not be faithful to someone who loved me enough to die for me?

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Financial Hardships

Po’ Girl is officially arse-out Po’!

I have just received my discharge in the chapter 7 bankruptcy I was forced to file due to the unexpected loss of my job, which is a very long story, the expiration of my unemployment, the loss of three more part-time jobs and the depletion of my entire life savings.  I now find myself having to live on social security, a lower amount for early application, and the very small pension I managed to accrue with one of the companies I was employed with years ago.  The only reason I even needed to file was to prevent my mortgage companies from trying to collect monies from me that I simply don’t have.  I never had any credit card problems like most.  I only purchased what I could afford.

There was no way I could have kept my home as victim to predatory lending in 2005.  My home is only worth about half of what I paid for it originally, even after improvements so since I don’t have an extra $75,000 or so to give these game playing banks, I chose to stay as long as possible and keep paying on it.  The loan payments were also due to go up an additional $400-$500 per month this year as well.  My only regret is that I didn’t file sooner because they allow you to have more money in your savings than I thought in a bankruptcy and I should never have let my cash reserve get this low.  I have already stopped making my mortgage payments and expect to receive notice of foreclosure any day now.

Be sure to contact a bankruptcy expert if you ever find yourself in financial hardship before you waste all your savings in a vain attempt trying to hang on to your home.  They should be able to suggest some options for you.  What ever you do, don’t use any service that claims will help you to keep your home.  Most of these are scams as well as most so-called experts are anything but.  There are some legitimate programs available for those that wish to keep their homes.

Pension wise, I need to decide between a small monthly annuity to help with my living expenses and renting somewhere really cheap or just withdraw the lump sum if I happen to find a cheap fixer-upper that is of move-in condition and I will only need to pay for the tax, insurance and utilities which should still be cheaper than most rents though possibly turn into a money pit.  Unfortunately, the prices of homes are on the rise again, though I’m not sure how or why.  The economy, I’m finding out, it truly in the eyes of the beholder.  If you are financially solvent, it’s great.  For folks like me, not so good.

There are apartments for the elderly and disabled that I am now in the income bracket for, but it seems like a place to go when you are on your way out of this world.  I still feel young and vibrant and really am not looking forward to the almost nursing home atmosphere, even if it will be kinder to my purse.  I may take the easy way out and do this, but I still want to try new things.  I forgot that not having money is a real deal-breaker a plan-changer, it’s a female dog!

I am going to attempt an etsy shop very soon but fear their website is so over saturated with home-made items right now.  Years ago you could make a buck because there was less competition, but now I understand from some that sales are hard to come by.  I’ll try it for a few months and if no sales, I will be doing strictly craft shows.  I’ve never made much money hanging in art galleries and doing shows, but when I used to do craft shows with my baskets, I made a few bucks and I really loved the camaraderie with the other crafters.  Might have just been the economy at the time.  I really believe that we have never economically recovered since 9/11.

I am trusting in God to be led by the spirit for the rest of my days.  I will trust in the Lord and I will be led down the right paths from now on.

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